Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Friday, July 06, 2007

MIX TOPIC

Topic 1

I wanna buy Gundam Seed robots!!! I have the interest to make gundam since my big bro bought 1 home and I helped him build it.

I saw those at Bugis while I was shopping alone yest. I'm eyeing on a big, pink colour 1, but it cost S$80+. Oh Lord.. Expensive! And some ppl might think that it's just another piece of crap and it's useless to waste so much money on those.

Bt it's interest...So no matter what, I'm gonna be as thrifty as I can and buy 1 when I'm rdy :D When I've done building it, I'll be so proud of myself. Hwahahahaha! Readers, don't ever discourage me bout this ok? I warn you all 1st. Hehehe.

Topic 2

It's all about self-esteem. Most ppl that I know of has lack of confidence. So I guess it's not wrong if I make the assumption that majority of human being has this problem. It's more often than not it's due to the physical appearance coz it can be seen by others. Human has the tendency of being ungrateful. Enough is nvr enough. Perfection is forever unreachable even though they already look fine. Flaws will somehow be found.

I can't deny that I myself has a vry low self-esteem. That's why I won't meet up some new friends so easily.

Everything is short on me. *Sigh* I hate it. Whole body is short. It's not a good thing. Oh God!!! I can't rly accept Your creation sometimes but I must be thankful for You've given me a healthy body. I can't love myself but I can't hate myself either. I'm in a dilemma. To love or to hate. Hahaha!

However, I'm grateful enough there are still some friends who accept me no matter how I look, in good condition or ugly state, even in fat n bad hair day situation :) But still, I'm like most people, perfection is so out of reach (in my case, my body isn't perfect yet. So I'm nt being greedy). I'm trying to get my determination back n running. I wanna show to myself that I can achieve something. I wanna show Yun when she returns here on August that I can do it :D

Vell Signed off ♥ 12:42 PM