Vell's Rainbowfied Life.

Monday, July 02, 2007

SOMETHING PERSONAL

It's all happening again. I'm too afraid to face this. I've experienced it several times already and am kindda traumatized by it. I don't wanna feel the disappointments anymore. I prefer to withdraw when this kind of thing start to approach me.

They come with sweet nothings. I got sort of affected by them. They became a tiny part of my life that made me grow some new habits. After say....twice of the experience, I learnt not to get too attached that I might develop any extra feelings. Yup I became smarter when it come striking on me.

They're good in making me feel dumb after they suddenly make the disappearing act altogether. Therefore, I must guard myself so as not to get myself too involved which would bring hurt eventually. I'm trained not to have the feeling so quickly. But at the same time, they made me felt awkward when they shower their affection towards me.

They're nice when they've only seen my pictures. They went missing after they've met up with me. I don't understand why the term 'friends' is not even in their dictionary anymore after they've seen me.

Everything's judged by the pretty face in this world. I don't blame them coz it's just human nature. Who wouldn't wanna have good looking people surrounding us. But then again...there's more than just pretty faces and slender body, right?

I'm looking for someone who's willing to accept the package as one and not only some of it. I'm more eager to find people who'd accept me from head to toe even after they see me. I don't take people's praises about my sweet face that easily. Coz what's the use of praising the face but running away after knowing the fact that my body isn't acceptable.

It'd only leave me with a deep hurt even when I've no special feelings towards them.

Vell Signed off ♥ 3:04 PM