I used to wonder how does it feel for a girl to have so many guys wooing them. It must've feel good, she must've feel like she's so pretty, treated like a princess, must've feel so proud for being herself, etc. I often envy those girls who can attract guys so easily without being the prettiest in the universe (sometimes, without being pretty at all). I always wonder what's their attraction, what's the particular factor that can make guys so mesmerized, so dying to get them, act so stupidly nice (and some are fake) during the wooing period. I wanted to have a taste of it all. Bt my elder sis used to tell me that it ain't nice. Some guys are just sooooo weird that she got scared. I had to help her answer phonecalls and lie to the guy who was chasing after her. She was always in the toilet back at those time. Hahaha. Once, my aunt picked up a call from a guy and told him that my sis was swimming. There's nothing wrong except it was in the middle of the night. I recall it was 11pm!!! Who wld swim in that hour in the condo pool? If it's private pool, then perhaps she would. Anyways....Poor guys. Being weirdos was bad enough, and still got cheated. Hahaha. Love is blind, I guess. Even after being lied to so many times, they still didn't give up. Due to this, I got irritated by them too. But I still thought that it was cool. My sisters are so cool, pretty, so many guys like them. I often envy them.
Bt I was totally wrong... Now that I've an encounter of it myself... Not that there are suddenly a lot of guys falling for me. But there's just one that just admitted to me. I don't like this. I don't wanna hurt anybody. It's all thanks to my reply in sms saying, 'Oh, I thought u ignored me. Haha.' Argh I shldn't have said that. It led to disaster. I already knew from the start that he's not gonna be inside my prospect list at all. So I treated him as a friend. Anyway we've only met for barely a few hours in total, not even a day! Who would fall for me in such short period of time? I don't believe in love at first sight. It'd only be loving the outward appearance, without knowing the inside. Thus, I ran away from this situation. I ignored him in return. I already tried to tell him that it can't happen between us. But he insisted that I should give it a try. NO!!! I don't like the way he speaks at all. His profession really shows..He's like totally a teacher. Always said out 'you get me?' during the conversation.
Hope he gets what I mean after I ignored his last sms without being hurt. All I wanted was a friend. But now...I lose it again. |
