I'm listening to an Indonesian Christian song right now while sending out my resume. The title is "Indah Pada Waktunya" by Edward Chen. It's very motivating for my dried up spirit. I've wondered why isn't there any call by any employer. I've had alot of doubts about many things regarding my incapability in getting a job. My family in Indo is running out of grace after only a month.

Is it coz I'm lazy in sending out resume? Or is it coz I was lazy to stdy in the past that my qualifications aren't that impressive to employers? Is the economy so bad here in Sg that nobody wants to employ me? Or is it more of a spiritual problem like unforgiveness in my heart or unfaithfullness towards God? Many questions like this run through my mind. I can't figure out what the real reason is. Perhaps the answer is a li'l bit of all?

I'm desperate. I wanna show myself and my family that I am able to find a job. I wanna show them that I'm able to survive the jungle and earn myself a living. So many things I've thought of if I were to finally get my 1st job. I've compromised with myself that no matter how much the salary offerred is, I'll just take the job. What I really need is the working experience, the exposure. It's not really about the money.

All these issues, however, don't really make me worry that much after I listen to the song that I'm currently repeating in my iTunes. Maybe God has another plan for me. What I know is, if He takes care of the grass on an unattended field, He'll remember to take care of me. Everything will be beautiful in His timing, not mine. I'll just work hard but at the same time, I won't go against His will. I know He has something great in mind for my life. What I need to do now is to ask Him for the good job while waiting patiently and BELIEVE that my prayer will come to pass.

==I might not understand what I'm going through right now. What I know for sure is that my God's grace won't stop. I lift all my worries up to You, Lord, for I believe everything will be beautiful in Your time==

Indah Pada WaktuNya - Edward Chen
Ada waktu tuk berduka
Ada waktu tuk bersuka
Ada waktu tuk berdiam
Ada waktu tuk berkata

Namun di atas sgalanya
Ku tau Allahku bekerja
Mendatangkan kebaikan
Bagi yang mengasihiNya

Disaat yang ku alami
Tak seperti yang kuingini
Disaat tiada jawaban
Mengapa harus terjadi

Namun di atas sgalanya
Ku tau Allahku bekerja
Mendatangkan kebaikan
Bagi yang mengasihiNya

Mungkin tak kupahami
Apa yang kini aku alami
Namun ku tau pasti
Kasih Allahku takkan berhenti

Kan ku srahkan semua
Pergumulanku padaMu Yesus
Karna kutau pasti
Semuanya kan jadi
Indah pada waktuNya