Yet another entry about how bored I am being unemployed. Many of my friends told me to enjoy my carefree life while I'm still able to. But it is getting wayyyyyy too longgggggggggggg that I can hardly stand this kind of lifestyle any longer. Spending so much time at home, watching so much TV, facing my laptop for the longest time in my life. It's making my head spin, my eyes hurt. Oh btw, my bank and wallet are hurting too! I can barely shop for goodness sake. The worst time of my life would probably be this. Hahaha! That is until I'm faced with another bigger trial in the future.
I have to think millions of times to buy 'not-needed-but-I-want' stuff. I even have to think several times to spend on food. In another point of view, it is rather good coz it'll help me in my diet process. But I still think that this kindda worries are so unnecessary. I'm starting to grow a few strands of gray hairs coz of this!!! Gosh!!!!!!
To make things worse, my family went to Australia today! How I feel like going along with them but I just can't due to circumstances. If I went along, I might as well forget about coming back to S'pore. Oh and if I still haven't got myself employed till end of Nov, I'm doomed too! Coz I'll have to go back to Indo for good. I can't imagine and don't want to anyway. A part of me don't mind going back and be together with family and help my dad's business and all. But another part of me is just not ready yet. I've many reasons that hold me back and one of it has gotta do with religion issue. I hate this. Coz I don't have the courage to voice out regarding my faith and belief to my parents which I know I have to. God give me wisdom. Let me be bold! Let me be able to intro to them the Good News! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!
In the meantime, more job hunting it shall be! Oh no... I'm hungry -.- |
