I was home alone the whole afternoon today. The only entertainment was TV n my laptop. Sometimes...Holidays without having someone to spend some quality time with isn't a very gd thing. Stuck alone at home.. That's sickening. Laze ard like nobody's biz. I wanted to just get out n walk on the street, walk along Orchard Rd (even tho it's so boring there). Bt there's just no one whom I can ask to come along with.
At times like this..How I wish I'd have a boyfriend. Hahaha. Nt that I'm lack of friends or I'm despo or wad la. Just that...Bf and friends are different. They provide different kind of feelings and happiness. And anyway most of my current friends are all young teens from W193. So it's abit different. I don't rly feel that my appearance even suit to be hanging around with them on the mall. I know my friends who read this entry wld probably be thinking that I'm just thinking too much. Yes I do think alot about nonsensical stuff. Bt I nd to grow up. Even tho some of them ever said that my face doesn't show my real age, I do feel that I nd to change. My behaviour and all. My appearance, my dressings, my attitude, etc. As I grow, my likings and tastes tend to change. So, I must rly help myself to grow internally. Since physically I can't grow anymore, I shld mould my behaviour right? If nt, like nvr grow at all... So embarassing one leh. I can't rly hide my age anymore coz it's rather shown frm my face already, a lil bit if not much. I'm sad with it lah~
But anyway... back to the bf topic. Spending the time with the 1 whom we love more than just friends is already making that big difference. And talking with our "life-partner" is more than just talking bout our other normal friends or usual topics like we do when we're chatting with our fellow girlfriends (or perhaps male friends too). There'll be some more extra topics that can be added in. That way, life is more exciting (together with the some arguments besides the laughters).
So..The BIG Qn is this..Where is he??? |
