My life has been quite a mess ever since I returned to Jkt. Physically and emotionally troubled. I often fall sick here and I am even much more careless that I could accidentally scratch myself badly. I am now carrying many scars on my legs. My brain is not even working well. My STM sometimes get worsen I guess. So many stuff to remember here at work. The daily routine is also very hectic with many customers coming over to get their goods.
My life spent with family is not as good as I thought it would be. So many conflict had happened. I felt like I could break down at times. On the other hand, I thought that it'd be best for me to stay away. I don't know what's best for me anymore.
Coz of these many problems, I have caused many hurt to my loved one. I am terribly sorry. I seek attention on the wrong place, I become dependent on you. I'm sorry I have been harsh in so many ways, in so many different occasion. I promise I'll change. I will find things to occupy myself with.
Thanks for being so patient. Thank you for still hanging on strong and not letting go. You are one in a million. |
